Well, I have not been on here in a year. I've had a lot happen in this year, that I wish did not, but it did. Lets start with My Dad had a stroke on the 27th or September, 2013, and passed away on the 4th of October, 2013. He was 73 yrs. old. I miss him so much. I didn't have time to grieve for him, as My Aunt Barb, was in a nursing home for rehabilitation from getting weak at home, and then they put in a pace maker in, so they sent her to nursing home, well she was there for the end of September and most of October, but she became weak and out of breath and ended back in hospital about the beginning of third week of October, she was in for ten days, and came home on hospice, as she was tired and ready to go home to be with our lord, so she came home, on the 31 of October, and got to see my grandson Rylan for trick or treat that night, it was on a Friday. She passed away on November 3rd, 2013. She was 78 years old. That took it's tole on me, for sure. Then in February my Brother Joe, came down with a cold. He had been sick back in October and November and December of 2012, with Bird Flu. It was along illness, and recovery, but he got through it, but not unscathed. He ended up on oxygen and other meds. for the rest of his life. So if he became sick, then it turned into aminona. well Superbowl this year, he got a cold, and went to hospital three times, was admitted twice, and the last time, he got so bad, he asked to be put on a ventilator because he couldn't breathe, so they put him on it, and was going down hill, and the hospital had crappy people working there, so I had him transferred to a better hospital. They took him, and did, there test, and kept him in a coma state, as he ended up with Swine Flu, and his lungs were so badly infected with mucus, and puss pockets, that he would never come off a ventilator, that he would have a Trake, and a feeding tube, put in, and then sent to a institution that would take care of him the rest of his life. That is if he could make it through the procedure of the trake. Well, then doctor got with me, and his kids and showed us his lungs, and that he wasn't going to make it. So we decided with heavy hearts to take him off the ventilator, and let him pass. He turned 49 on the 21st, of February,2013, he passed on the 24th of February, 2013.
Then my step daughter's mother was diagnosed with lung cancer and stage 4 brain cancer in may of this year, they gave her 60 days to live. She done 10 sessions of radiation on her brain to shrink the 9 nodules they found there. Then she started Kemo to work on spot in lungs. She had first session, and ended up in hospital, fluid around her heart and lungs, so they took care of that. Sent her home, went back a few days later, couldn't breathe, and was hurting, but she didn't want to take her meds, as she didn't want to get additive to them, so she wouldn't take them. Then, a few more weeks go bye, and she has to go back to hospital. She has blood clots in her lungs, and they can't do nothing for them, so she goes home and then a day or so later, has to go back she can barely walk, and her breathing is getting worse. So they put her on the by pap, to give her oxygen, and she was just to tired, and drained from it, that she passed away. She will be missed too.
And now it's July, and i get a call, my niece Lacy was found dead at home. She was my brother Joe's second child. She died at home, and left behind a husband, and three beautiful little girls, a 9 yr. old, a 3 yr. old, and a 9 month old. She was only 28 yrs' old. They don't know what she died of yet, its being investigated. She missed her Dad so much, she tried to take her own life, but realized what she was doing, and got help. Then this happens. I just don't know how much more I can take.
I miss them all so much. I keep praying, and I know I'll see them again!!
Thanks for taking the time to read my blog. It's sad, but it helps, with the grieving process.
